I Miss Everything

Greetings Programs,

I do. I miss everything. I miss out on everything. I also miss everything, or everyone, because it's (they're) gone.

So, here is a comic. Enjoy it while it's free. Enjoy it while I still make them. Ha ha, just kidding kids. These crappy comics will be around for awhile. I guess, as long as I am. But, who knows how long that will be. It's been a rough couple of months. I survived. Barely. I will try to update at least once a week, but we all know how unfair real life is... I have been faced with hard facts in the last few months. Anyone who spends anytime with me knows I can be really funny...and they also know I can be a real downer. All I want to do is draw, and I don't think it's too much to ask. Well, according to the powers that be, it is. Because they are trying real hard to make sure it does not happen. And, like any creative person, I am constantly plagued with fits of hilarious self loathing and days of second guessing every choice I make. Apparently, I have been saying I should quit drawing comics and just grow up for the last 10 years. Wow. I am such a turd. I'm never going to quit. The biggest compliment I have ever received was from my good friend Rob, 'You know what I like about you John? You will always draw. No matter where you are, what the situation is, you will always find a way to be drawing.' -it was something like that anyway. Thanks, Rob, I think about that all the time. I am lucky enough to have an amazing support system of friends and family, and the most amazing partner a man could have. No one has pushed me more than you, thank you. I work a full time job, that get's better everyday, even though I am working towards a goal within those parameters, it's an amazing job. I try to have a life at home. I try to make time for RobotBully. I try. There are aspects that no longer appeal to me, there are things that I have let others ruin for me, what can I say, I'm sensitive. Life just came around with two anniversaries that define my adult life. In my lifetime, I have lost two people that I have called my best friend. They both passed away in March. - one was taken 13 years ago, the other only a year ago - Within 4 days of each other. I remember telling one about the one that had passed away, way back when my first friend passed away. Wow. What I am getting at kids, is be good to your friends. Tell them you love them. I think about them every day, and wish I could have done more. Wish I could have told them how much I love them one last time. But, it keeps me going. It makes me live my life with the hope that I can do better, be a better man. So there, I told you life is unfair. But, you know, lemonade and such... As I am going through whatever profound (profound to me, anyway) life change this is, I take notes, and try to draw every day. I will still do these comics, I'm here to do something, I guess. Thanks for reading, I hope you will stick around. Thanks, I love you all, even the people I hate, John

I am not sure what the point of this rant was...but thanks.